I haven’t decided yet
If I really want to go on
Haven’t raised the hand
When you told me to be strong

Well ...
I’m looking for something real
Something in this hell I’ll be able to feel

I found you staring blankly
Straight through me, you look empty
I don't know what you hoped to find
But now it might become right

Your body defrosted, your look becomes warm
you seem to smile when falling into my arms
Time stops, the universe folded into a quiet place
Where two wayfarers lay, dreaming face to face

Well ...
I’ve found something that's real
Something in this hell I’m able to feel

I woke, searching for your hand to hold
And grabbed the void, only the sun shines gold
Where did you go? How can I find?
Things vanished; a desert is all that was left behind

A shadow, my heart seems to burst
Made many mistakes, every one of them hurts
I don't want you to sorrow, but there's only your shadow
Or am I this blurry shadow? I really don't know

Well ...
I’ve lost something that's real
Something in this hell I was able to feel

I haven’t decided yet
If I really want to go on
Drifting through grey fog
Could I ever have been strong?

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Special thanks to dazzle-stock ([link]) and decay-stock ([link]) for uploading these both beautiful pictures i mixed into one for my visual poetry! thanks a lot

and a little greeting to the lost piece of my heart ...